Thursday, July 20, 2006

A Moment

Last night I got upset with Eva and as I heard my voice rise in that special shrill way that only a mother of a 2 year old can understand, I looked at her little face, with the lower lip sticking out all pouty and yet, annoyed, and I thought of her birth mother. I thought of Eva being left at the gates of the social welfare institute, obviously meant to be found and hopefully adopted... and what would her family, if not her mother, then her father, or brother, or an auntie, give to be able to be in my place? Lucky enough to have her in their life to drive them nuts.

& I shut my mouth and picked up my daughter and kissed her naughty face and said a prayer of thanks.

28 comments:

jennster said...

oh man. can you come pick me up too? SMOOCH!

Joannah said...

That's more than just a moment - that was an epiphany. Wow!

Ann said...

Kinda puts things in perspective when you think about those things. Good for you!!!

Melissa said...

So sweet. And wonderful that you reconized it. You rock, Kristin.

Lisa Goldstein/Kelly Kelly said...

You are BOTH so lucky. That was beautiful.

Lisa

Margaret said...

That's a good mommy moment.

Mona said...

What a beautiful entry, Kristin.

Mommy off the Record said...

That is so sweet. Lucky baby. Lucky mommy.

carrie said...

Sniffle, sniffle. Every time I think about our niece all wrapped up on the steps of a hotel in Nanning, I cry. It is just too much. Big hug to Eva (and you, too, mommy)!

Carrie

Pendullum said...

My daughter has good friends adopted from China...
And we thank our lucky stars for having them in our lives as well...
And as for the shrill of a voice...
a the terrible twos... Big hug your way...
Terrible twos... Rennovations, Big Job Offers, relocating to Hawaii for a stint with 2 boys and your gal pal...Hugh joining you later...
No stress on your plate...
Big Hug your Way...

lildb said...

holy crap. thanks for the reality check. the children, they can be so !!!!! frustrating, but they are still the best thing ever invented.

xoxo

Nikki said...

Aaaawwwww.

joannah is correct, the word is epiphany.

Kim M. said...

Thank you for sharing that moment. I needed that I just can't explain, but thanks!!

Lisa said...

Awww. That is so sweet. She's lucky to have you!

Christina_the_wench said...

Now I have to go repent for yelling at the girls again. Great reality check. Thanks, Kristin.

Tuesday Girl said...

That is amazing that you were able to do that. Two year olds are VERY trying sometimes.

Good for you.

Johnny said...

Good catch on the perspective!

Anonymous said...

JUST WONDERFUL, KRISTI.

Jenn said...

Yea.....and that goes for all of us with kiddies...adopted or not.
*nod* so true.

Gingers Mom said...

That was beautiful. I think all us mommies have a moment like that. Right when you are about to scream at them you realize how precious you are to have them in your care. Then the guilt sets in... Good for you for taking a moment to realize how special she is. Found you through crazy hip mamas.

Kevin Charnas said...

Perspective...it's all about perspective and recognizing it. It takes work to remember it, but is oh so worth it. wonderful post.

hautemama said...

You're human my friend and you're an angel!

mamatulip said...

I know what you mean.

Ninotchka said...

that's beautiful, kristin

J.D. said...

Awwwww...

Bonnie B said...

That was so sweet

krista said...

Wow. Amazing how some ordinary moments can be so powerful.

Mama C-ta said...

Awesome you recognized that b/c it can be very hard when they are getting on your last frigin' nerve. It's not always easy to put things into perspective like that. You are a great Mother